Life and Other Unmanageable Events

See the source imageWhat do Marianne Dashwood, Louisa Musgrove, and my handsome husband all have in common? We’ll get to that in a moment. But first, time for a brief update on my activities and progress.

If you read my blog regularly (not too much of a demand on your time, since I only get around to posting about once a month!), you might remember that I’ve had an eclectic mix of projects to work on: a play, a Northanger Abbey sequel, a story about a car, and a Jane Austen devotional. Hows that for variety?

The good news is that the play (adapted from The Ladies of Rosings Park) is finished! I’ve passed it along to my friend who has connections with a Seattle playhouse. Keep your fingers crossed that it makes it onto the Taproot Theater’s schedule in the next year or two. Wouldn’t that be exciting?

See the source imageThe not-so-good news is that the story about the car (see An Inspiring Trip to the Lake) hit a roadblock fairly early on, although I still plan to come back to it with renewed energy at some point. So then I turned my attention to the NA sequel, working title Murder at Northanger Abbey (see description and excerpt in Coming Attractions). Everything went great for the first 16 chapters. Then I kind of ran out of steam, which is unusual for me.

Since then, I’ve been working exclusively on the devotional. It’s based on Jane Austen’s three preserved prayers, using events and people from her novels to illustrate spiritual principles (see Jane Austen’s Devotion).  I’ve got 37 (of probably 50) segments done for a total of 172 pages so far.

My progress has been slower than I hoped due to life and other unmanageable events. I’m sure I’m not alone in this; you probably know just what I mean. We make big plans and well-intentioned goals, only to have interruptions occur, complications arise, and the unexpected pop up to block our paths.

Among other things, this has meant WAY too much time spent in hospitals by my family this past year – everything from a complicated pregnancy/premature birth to end of life issues, with a few things in between. In case I was unaware of it before (which I wasn’t), all this goes to show that we are not in control, no matter how much we like to imagine we are. We don’t know from one minute to the next if we’ll make it through the day safely.

Inspired by a line Jane Austen wrote in one of her prayers, that’s how I began the particular devotional segment I was working on March 20, when one of those unexpected and all-too-real-life crisis events showed up in my path. Here’s what I wrote:


An Ounce of Wisdom…

Father of Heaven! whose goodness has brought us in safety to the close of this day, dispose our hearts in fervent prayer.

Making it safely through any particular day is not something we can ever take for granted. Although experience has taught us that we usually do, accidents can happen, sudden illness may occur (even to a person who seemed perfectly healthy a moment before), and random violence is always at least a remote possibility.

When I wrote the lines above, little did I realize that I would an hour later be living out the truth of them as my husband was taken to the hospital with what turned out to be a mild heart attack. Thankfully, he’s going to be okay, but it came as quite a shock, especially since he was exactly what I had just described: a person who seemed perfectly healthy a moment before!

See the source imageIn much the same way, when a group of friends decided to take one last walk on the Cobb at Lyme, they had no suspicion that one of them would barely make it back alive.  And when a lovely young woman set out one day for a rather wet ramble over the grounds of the Cleveland estate, she had no idea it would result in a violent fever that would pursue her to the brink of death.

A brush with disaster may indeed dispose our hearts in fervent prayer, as in today’s petition. We pray that God will rescue us from things beyond our control (then hopefully remember to pray just as fervently in thanksgiving if he does!). It also has the power to change us, temporarily or even permanently. We tend to see things more clearly afterward, to reexamine our behavior and our priorities in light of the discovery that life itself is fragile. We may be moved to repent if our own folly contributed to the crisis, just as Marianne Dashwood does.

“My illness has made me think… I saw in my own behaviour… nothing but a series of imprudence towards myself, and want of kindness to others. I saw that my own feelings had prepared my sufferings, and that my want of fortitude under them had almost led me to the grave. My illness, I well knew, had been entirely brought on by myself, by such negligence of my own health, as I had felt even at the time to be wrong… I wonder at my recovery, wonder that the very eagerness of my desire to live, to have time for atonement to my God, and to you all, did not kill me at once… I have laid down my plan, and if I am capable of adhering to it, my feelings shall be governed and my temper improved… it shall be checked by religion, by reason, by constant employment.” (Sense and Sensibility, chapter 46)

Marianne Dashwood (just like Louisa Musgrove in Persuasion) was profoundly changed by her close call. As it says in the final chapter, She was born to discover the falsehood of her own opinions, and to counteract, by her conduct, her most favourite maxims. She lived to make a far wiser choice for herself, too, in Colonel Brandon.

Good for her! But how much better it would be if we could become wise without the drama of near tragedy to teach us what not to do! – if Louisa Musgrove hadn’t insisted on recklessly risking life and limb by jumping from the stairs in the first place, if Marianne Dashwood hadn’t worked herself into a susceptible state by giving free rein to her ‘excess sensibility.’

The same also applies to the rest of us. Not all disasters are self-inflicted, of course, but many are. Have you, knowingly or unknowingly, placed yourself (or others) in jeopardy by indulging in risky behavior? Are you by bad habits endangering your health in some way? Are you storing up suffering for yourself by neglecting your marriage, your finances, or the discipline of your children?

Blessed is the man who finds wisdom, the man who gains understanding, for she is more profitable than silver and yields better returns than gold. She is more precious than rubies; nothing you desire can compare with her. Long life is in her right hand; in her left hand are riches and honor. Her ways are pleasant ways, and all her paths are peace. She is a tree of life to those who embrace her; those who lay hold of her will be blessed… My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment, do not let them out of your sight; they will be life for you, an ornament to grace your neck. Then you will go on your way in safety, and your foot will not stumble; when you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet. Have no fear of sudden disaster or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked, for the LORD will be your confidence and will keep your foot from being snared. (Proverbs 3:13-26)

God himself is the source of all wisdom – the starting point, the essence, the sum total, the final word. Where you lack understanding, ask him and he has promised to give it generously without reproach (James1:5). May you then be wise enough to apply it. And when, in his goodness, God brings you safely to the end of another day, remember, like Jane Austen wrote, to give him fervent thanks!

What do you think of this sample? Seriously, I’d appreciate some feedback.

I write these devotional segments as much for myself as anybody else, and this one is no exception. Even though it was my husband who had the heart attack, it could just as easily have been me. So we’re both trying to benefit from the wake-up call and wise up, embarking on a program for better health.

Wishing each of you health and wisdom as you go through the days (and hopefully many, many years) to come!

About Shannon Winslow

author of historical fiction in the tradition of Jane Austen
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11 Responses to Life and Other Unmanageable Events

  1. Maureen C says:

    I really appreciated this devotional! It came from real- life experience, with good applications from Jane’s wriings, and most importantly, supporting quotes from God’s Word. I think you have a really good balance here, and i look forward to reading more.

  2. deborahanne2 says:

    Oh my. I am glad your husband is ok. What a scare. Have had family issues as well. Hope things settle down this year.

    • Thanks, Debbie. He’s undergoing another cardiac catheterization tomorrow to take care of a secondary blockage, and my mom’s in the hospital now. So we’re not quite finished with this round yet…

  3. pedmisson says:

    I enjoyed reading this devotional. Continue with the work. This will be a book I would want as a paperback. Prayers for you and family.

  4. This is another WONDERFUL and deep-diving devotional entry, Shannon!! Lots of spiritual “meat” here!! I so enjoyed the entries you previously sent me to review. You have taken the prayers of Austen into our own lives, offering solid applications to our own circumstances. This entry, in particular, spoke to me as I deal with my parents’ health issues and their care, plus my own kids’ illnesses and challenges. You encourage and remind us to step back and prayerfully assess all aspects of our lives as we seek to balance the fragility of life with the hope of Christ. The Scriptures you included are spot-on, too. You’ve given me much to pray over and think about. Thank you!!

    If you would like me to edit/proofread the whole shebang when you finish the draft, it would be a blessing for me to assist you. The more people who read this devotional and find in it the leading of the Holy Spirit, the better. While I have only glanced through other Austen devotionals, it seems to me that yours takes us much deeper into our lives and relationships, offering us practical applications that have the power to effect change in our spiritual life as well as our daily life. Thank you, Shannon!

    Soli Deo Gloria,
    Susanne 🙂

    • I’m so glad you think I am (with God’s direction) on the right track, Susanne! I do want each segment to contain some “meatiness,” not just feel-good fluff. The personal applications are more difficult to bring out sometimes, but this one got unexpectedly handed right to me. I appreciate your offer of reading through it when it’s done, too, and I will gratefully take you up on that! Above all things, I want to ensure I have handled God’s word accurately.

      • Count me in, Shannon!! I will be happy to read through it for content and also proofread if you like. I currently proofread for Maria Grace and have also proofread Conceit and Concealment for Abigail Reynolds. I consider it a ministry to my beloved Austenesque authors! 🙂

        Soli Deo Gloria,
        Susanne 🙂

  5. Shannon, I know oh so well how life can throw us curve balls. My brother was found to have a Glioblastoma (killed Beau Biden and Sen. McCain) two years ago. He is two years younger than I am. He had a second operation this past Tuesday and only time will tell. They do have him in a clinical study. As for me, in 1996 I was diagnosed with CML (Chronic Myloid Leukemia) and, although I am now in remission, I continue to take a chemotherapy tablet daily and have side affects i.e., tiredness. So, I am glad your husband is OK. As for the devotional, I hope you continue to be inspired. I read a devotional daily but it is, of course, not connected to JA. Good luck with that. Thanks for sharing.

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