Diverting to Derbyshire – a P&P Missing Scene

See the source imageSince everybody seemed to appreciate The Specter of Mr. Collins, which I posted here a couple of months ago, I thought today I’d share another of my P&P ‘missing scenes.’ Most of the ones I’ve written are included in a group publication (Pride & Prejudice: Behind the Scenes), but I hope to compile them all as part of my own short story volume eventually!

I have a hard time beginning to write something out of nothing, but if I have a question or some other jumping-off point to spark my imagination, I’m off and running, and probably having the time of my life! The following verse (Pride and Prejudice, chapter 42) inspired the scene below – Elizabeth dreads the possibility of running into Darcy when she goes to Derbyshire with her Aunt and Uncle Gardiner. Hope you enjoy it!

With the mention of Derbyshire, there were many ideas connected. It was impossible for her to see the word without thinking of Pemberley and its owner. “But surely,” said she, “I may enter his county with impunity, and rob it of a few petrified spars without his perceiving me.”


 


Elizabeth Bennet:

Derbyshire. That one word brought it all flooding back to my mind, all that I had so studiously endeavored to put from it. My heart had been set on seeing The Lakes, but my aunt’s letter two weeks ago not only put an end to that thrilling expectation, but replaced it with something like apprehension at the thought of diverting to Derbyshire instead. Even now, I am tormented by the idea.

I cannot think of Derbyshire without unhappy associations rising up in my mind. No doubt it is grand country, full of beauties that are not to be missed. But to me it can only ever mean one thing; I will be entering the county wherein resides the owner of Pemberley, a man I had fervently hoped never to meet with again in the whole course of my life. And I know he must feel the same. For proof of it, I have only to refer again to his letter.

Why I have kept it, I cannot rightly say. It is not normally in my nature to dwell on unpleasantness. But in this case, I make an exception. My culpability in the debacle with Mr. Darcy is something I dare not forget entirely, lest I should ever behave so badly again. How despicably I acted! How dreadfully I misjudged him! His written words at last taught me to properly know myself, and I have resolved to revisit them occasionally as a sort of penance.

Pulling the letter from its hiding place, I peruse its pages once more. The truth of his explanations concerning the two charges I so vehemently laid at his door, I have long since ceased to question. I need not read those sections again; I know them by heart.

Mr. Darcy’s interference with Jane and Mr. Bingley is something I continue to lament most grievously for my sister’s sake, although I can no longer bring myself to hate him for it. There was no malice in the case, only an error in judgment – a failing to which I proved similarly susceptible in the other matter. When I think what he and his sister suffered at the hands of Mr. Wickham, I believe I better understand some portion of his actions in Hertfordshire, some grounds for his distrustful reserve.

Although his careful explanations are most material in exonerating his character, it is always the beginning and the end of Mr. Darcy’s letter that cut me to the quick. That is where my conscience seeks to punish me, for that is where the man himself and how I have injured him are most clearly revealed.

Be not alarmed, Madam, on receiving this letter, by the apprehension of its containing any repetition of those sentiments, or renewal of those offers, which were last night so disgusting to you. I write without any intention of paining you, or humbling myself, by dwelling on wishes, which, for the happiness of both, cannot be too soon forgotten…

 And then at the end…

 …If your abhorrence of me should make my assertions valueless, you cannot be prevented by the same cause from confiding in my cousin; and that there may be the possibility of consulting him, I shall endeavour to find some opportunity of putting this letter in your hands in the course of the morning. I will only add, God bless you.

 Fitzwilliam Darcy

Oh, how these words have tortured me! If I still believed him to be a man without feeling, I could laugh at my own blindness well enough. Yet here is evidence that he has a heart after all, one capable of caring deeply… and being just as deeply wounded. Even should he one day find the charity to forgive how I have insulted him, I shall never forgive myself. But neither can I be content to wallow forever in self recriminations. I was not formed for unhappiness.

No, the only safe solution is that I never see Mr. Darcy again. He may get on with his life, well rid of me, and I will get on with mine, a little better for having known him. So there’s an end to it. Now, if only I can tour Derbyshire without him crossing my path…



Luckily for Elizabeth, she doesn’t get her wish. As you know, she finds something much better than she expects in Derbyshire!

About Shannon Winslow

author of historical fiction in the tradition of Jane Austen
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11 Responses to Diverting to Derbyshire – a P&P Missing Scene

  1. Emma Dabney says:

    I love this excerpt. It is so fasinating. Can’t wait to read the book if there will be one!

    • Glad you liked it, Emma! I’m not so much for writing variations, but I love to supplement what JA already wrote with missing scenes, like this one, and sequels. Until I have a short story collection ready, I hope you’ll read my novels, if you haven’t already. The one most like P&P missing scenes would be The Ladies of Rosings Park, which tells events from Lady Catherine’s, Anne’s, and Charlotte’s points of view. 🙂

  2. Hello, Shannon, That was a sweet piece. We all know that she will not avoid having Mr. Darcy cross her path and thankfully it all sorts itself out in the end. Happy New Year. Thanks for sharing here.

  3. I really enjoyed this glimpse into Elizabeth’s mind before their trip north. Thus, we see precisely her mood as she encounters Darcy at Pemberley (whether he dunked in the pond or not, LOL!)

    How goes the devotional? I’m really excited about it!

    Warmly,
    Susanne 🙂

    • Thanks, Susanne. I’ve had very little time to write recently, and what time I do carve out has been split between the devotional and my NA sequel. So progress has been slow, unfortunately. Hope to get back to it soon, though!

      • I totally get it; I’ve had no time to write for the past couple of years. Drives me crazy.

        Looking forward to seeing anything you write whenever it’s ready! 😀

  4. Vee says:

    I loved this excerpt thank you Shannon ❤️
    I enjoyed reading Elizabeth’s thoughts. Beautifully written 💖

  5. deborahanne2 says:

    I can just imagine Elizabeth thinking this. Another excellent missing scene.

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